So.
I went up on Saturday night to get Cherie from the airport Sunday afternoon. My mum, my aunt, my aunt's fiance, and I went out to dinner at this really awesome-looking new restaraunt, from which I got food poisioning.
Really, really terrible food poisoning.
I spent from about 1 - 8 am Sunday morning vomiting. The rest of the day I was nauseous, faint, and sore.
We were supposed to spend the day at the Mall Of America and we ended up just going through the Aquarium really fast and then leaving so that my mother could take me to the hospital. Yeah, Cherie's first day here included a trip to the hospital for me. xD How exciting, right?
There is nothing really wrong with me - I feel great today! - I was just a little dehydrated and a little low on Potassium. The doctors said I got hit really hard by food poisioning, but I should be fine. And I do feel fine today, if not a little sore, so everything's going pretty well.
Cherie's sitting on the couch. She can't get her laptop on the internet because my wireless is being retarded and the program won't open. So we might have to uninstall and reinstall everything tonight. Which means both of us might have internet... or neither of us might have internet. Oh well. We've done pretty well before right now without internet.
They still don't have my goddamn car done.
They told us, "Maybe tomorrow" when we called today.
It better be fucking done by tomorrow, let me tell you.
Sometime this week we still need to:
-Go see that Kung Fu Panda movie
-Go shopping
-Go horseback riding
-Go to Jellystone
Horseback riding is probably the biggest priority, but both of us need to get our dads a father's day present so that's up there on the list, too.
I better have my damn car back.
I REALLY don't want to have to take my dad's truck and take him to work and pick him up.
Really.
I'm all graduated. x3
That's me with Mr. Waldhart, the band teacher that's leaving our school. </3
We had a good time. Except some of the students misbehaved a LOT at the ceremony. Spraying silly string all over. Ugh. It really pissed me off.
I was going to go to some partiest today but it's storming and I REALLY need to clean so I'm going to hold off on that until my sister gets home, then just go to Mary's for a little bit and come home and clean more.
<3 Woot woot
Erika
After our band final yesterday my band teacher announced that after seven years in the district, he accepted a job in for the West Salem Middle School.
I (and most of the other students) was crushed. I cried. A lot.
It was just so shocking.
He's someone that has always been there for me. He's like a third parent, I swear. He's hilarious and easy to talk to, and he genuinely cares about the students.
And he felt terrible too.
However, it is what is best for his family. So of course I support him 100%.
It was just very sad.
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My car is broken. >:
I'm taking it in tomorrow to get it fixed. Hopefully it won't take long so I'll be able to get to work, and extremely hopefully it will not be a big thing that costs a lot to fix. I will cry.
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I graduate on Friday. =O
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BARACK OBAMA FOR PRESIDENT.
Hellz yes.
I am so excited.
x3 I get to vooooote!
For diamonds do appear to be
just like broken glass to me.
I had to sit in my car tonight after work, close my eyes, and just sit and listen to the rain and Northern Downpour. It seemed so fitting; it's the end of my very.. chaotic senior year and it's supposed to rain the rest of this week and even on Friday. Everyone is all upset that our graduation may be inside, but I find it... oddly fitting. The uncomfortable, hot, irritating atmosphere seems so fitting when I think of what the perfect sum of this year should be.
I wish that I could go outside right now and curl up in a tent and just listen to this song on repeat and listen to the rain fall all night and just think of everything that has happened in the past year. I want to have time alone to myself on a night like this, I want to be able to sit there and cry and think of the ex-friends that I still miss, how stupid I am to still miss them. I want to think on the people that make me happy, the past year of the two Honda Civic Tour concerts and the Cobra Concert and all the good times I had at other events like these with friends and family and the music I love so dearly.
I just want to cry.
I am stressed out of my mind.
I have my final for Pre-Calc tomorrow first thing... I have no idea what the hell I'm doing in that class. I don't know my current grade, either, so I don't know where I stand as far as pass/fail goes. I don't need the class to graduate, but I probably need it to still be in UW-LaCrosse.
It's the only final I'm really worried about as far as tough goes, and damn does it suck.
Past that, I just don't really know what the hell I'm going to do with myself after high school. I am terrified of not having the money to go to college, terrified of becoming nothing. I'm terrified of being alone for the rest of my life while my friends move on.
And it really sucks, because none of them seem to care at all about graduation - in fact, they're all extremely excited to graduate.
I will cry.
I know this because when we played Loch Lommond(the senior song) I almost cried today.
I can't help it; in a way this is the end of my life. I know my role in high school, I know who I am and what friends I have and what I should do here. I just can't picture myself anywhere else. I can't see myself older, I can't see myself with a specific job. I can't see myself alive.
I just have no idea what I'm going to do.
I have no idea who I am.
I miss the girl who abandoned me, I love her and I hate her. I miss the others who seem to have moved on without me. I miss the little pieces they took away that have left me here staring at all the remaining pieces wondering what in the hell I can possibly do with them.
I'm supposed to be so happy,
and it's all I can do not to cry.
